"What does practicing
resurrection mean to you?"...This is tricky. While writing
our covenant we searched long and hard for something to counterbalance, “We
practice resurrection,” looking carefully for a phrase that recognizes the
uncertainty that comes implicit in faith. It isn’t that I don’t want to
practice resurrection or am completely incapable of ever doing so; the issue is
that I’m not sure what it even looks like. Hence, “we don’t know what will be.”
I shuffle between the two on a daily basis, at times feeling absolutely rooted
in the truth of Christ and his resurrection while at others feeling completely
isolated and alone, stuck in a system that emphasizes doubt and uncertainty
above all. But resurrection remains even when I can’t see it, and that’s the
beauty of it all. Practicing resurrection is practicing a heartfelt and
others-focused search for the Lord. Maybe some day I’ll be able to answer the
question after having found and embraced Him with all that I have, but for now
the search is all I’ve got. Practicing resurrection is looking for Jesus in the
faces of peers, faculty, friends, family, and the woman who comes knocking on
my back door at 2:00am looking for food. Practicing resurrection is looking for
a beautiful, simple truth underneath the layers of muck that surround me. I
might not find it all the time, but that’s why it’s a practice. Some day I’ll
be better.
-Evans Lodge
ABSL Natural Sciences & Math
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